Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Beneath the Surface

Sand. A leaf. Stones.

One motif that seems to continually reappear in my all writing is my desire to look at what lies on the other side of some boundary.

Maybe a physical boundary, like the surface of water, or a wall with its doors and windows, or time itself.

The picture behind my blog title was taken looking straight down into a body of water that is very special to me. I love how in parts of the picture the surface disappears, and in others, the reflection of the sky can still be seen. 

It may be an emotional boundary - what will happen if I allow myself to truly be who I am, with no shame, no fear? 

It's very interesting to me, as I venture past the dividing line that separates
me when I was thinking about writing erotica/smut/porn/whatever

and

me now that I am (though still unpublished for the most part - I don't really count what I've posted here), is the level of comfort I feel with myself now. It's like I'm no longer denying a part of myself. The freedom I feel after I write something is compelling - now that I've started, I can't see what was holding me back. 


7 comments:

Jeremy Edwards said...

It's like I'm no longer denying a part of myself. The freedom I feel after I write something is compelling - now that I've started, I can't see what was holding me back.

What an inspiring, heartwarming statement to read! Yay!

[Look, even the spamwords are cheering: Frabli!]

Erobintica said...

Frabli indeed!

Thanks Jeremy. Oh, and I've been having such a wonderful time gorging myself you the lovely soup that you and Helia have simmering on your stove today.

Erobintica said...

that's what I get for typing with soup spilling out of my mouth - that should be a "on" instead of "you"

oh my, haha, have I had too much zin?

Erobintica said...

yes, too much zin - I've committed a sin - a instead of an


hahahaha

Jeremy Edwards said...

: )

Emerald said...

What a cool post, Erobintica (I seem to have had this urge to call you "E-Rob," similar to "A-Rod" if you're at all a baseball or Yankees fan...if not, you likely have no idea what I'm talking about, lol). I loved all of it -- the initially vague/general talk about boundaries, the neat description of your blog title photo, and the fascinating contemplation about specifically your experience of yourself. Thanks for sharing!

Erobintica said...

Jeremy - hope I didn't spill too much zin over at your place. ;-)

Emerald - Thanks! I'm finding this to be an interesting journey and I'll be writing more along these lines.

Yes, I would have gotten the reference even though I only like watching baseball - I'm not a FAN - and it's funny, the only people that have ever called me Rob is my grandmother (long gone) and my dentist.